week 7 of IPP.

attachment pretty much sucked. doing the same shit everyday and saying the same few sentences over and over is seriously driving me up the wall. been covering up peoples' asses and its doing me no good at all. i hate they way people do things but all i can do is just keep my mouth shut. ive never been sure of what i actually want. its like a standstill, and i wish time could actually stop for a while for me to have more fresh air. ive been missing school, like seriously. nowadays i think back about my life in poly and i tend to smile to myself, weird.

i miss my buddies in sch, L and F. i can still recall countless times where by i screwed up and how L never fails to help me cover my ass and at the end of the day, we'll still laugh like crazy together. but he screws me up too at times but i dont give a shit about that coz i'll gladly cover his like how he always did about mine. F has always been the listening ear and she still is. she takes almost all the nonsense and craps i give and in return, she gives me hers so i think its perfectly fair. shes the one im so used to talking to whenever im confused or whenever i needed to sort out some thoughts. shes the brain. i rmb looking forward about going to sch coz i know i have L and F with me. but time passed too soon too quietly and too cruelly so we went our seperate ways, into different specialized paths. we dont see each other anymore. well, i guess thats life. but, at times, i still think of both of yall and smile. i dont really know why, may be its coz 3 of us are just mad.

ive been feeling really frustrated and pissed without any reason recently. i hope i'll be back to normal pretty soon coz this isnt exactly a good feeling. ive been lacking sleep major and ive been dreaming alot about the past. people say, you dream coz you think. im not sure. i hope those shit aint coming back coz i know its gonna screw me up again. goodnight.