had always been someone who tries to give people around him all that he can give, not really hoping that he will be repaid or whatever. sometimes its hard to understand what people are really thinking and its even harder to understand the actual reasons behind a particular action. or there isnt really any reason to start with, just a random surge of emotions affecting even the happiest person alive. nah. for everything, there will be a reason. but doesnt really matter isnt it. being a person who gets whatever he ever wanted in his hands feels good initially, but slowly the thrill and excitment fades and at the end of the day, everything still feels extremely emtpy. had always been a person who goes about doing things the way he wanted, neglecting how people around him will feel. knowing its not really that good a thing, its still diffcult to correct it. its just there. had always been a person whos no good at all in expressing himself through beautiful words. the fear, the pessimistic view about the outcome. things might be different if that wasnt the case, oh well, who knows. its hard to wake up everyday knowing that its all the same old routine again. its hard to fall asleep knowing that its all the same old routine again. its even harder to look into the mirror, looking at a person with totally no clue as to what he wants. hmmm may be all that he asks is to be able to understand people more. good thing or bad thing, doesnt matter. time flies, time doesnt wait for anyone. either you catch it at that very instant or its wasted. alright, just spent 10 mins typing craps.
what is it that im truly after, come, tell me.
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