Term break is over and school is as usual i guess, still trying my best to get back to the normal school life. I hope this time round i can really enjoy going to school because school is so gonna be history real soon. Seriously, school is really quite a nice place actually, a place where I can hang out with my friends and even just walk around aimlessly and find myself feeling happy. I'm glad we were given the chance to grow and become better individuals together, my friends.
Well since school is still as boring, and I dont really work that hard, I ended up with just too much time, so much that i started thinking about the past. I believed I've changed quite alot, like from a hot tempered monster to someone who is so relaxed nowadays. Well, may be its cause I'm much older now and i tend to think much more before i do anything.
Been talking alot with my dad recently. I told him ALL my problems, i mean EVERYTHING, an he can actually relate. Seriously, i dont see this day coming but oh well, im glad i did. He told me stories about his young and dangerous days, kinda shocked. Well, he was once young. I'm trully grateful ive such a dad, who never fails to give me support whenever i needed any, even when im in the wrong. He taught me how to become a better man, not failing my duties as a son, not disappointing my mum. Most importantly, always believing in my own dreams and to try my best to fulfill them while on the other hand, not letting anyone down. He taught me how i should behave as a Man and not doing things that will hurt others, not getting too impatient into things as the right time will defintely come, just a matter of how soon. Cause of my dad, I am proud to say I know how to behave, though this sounds lame HAHA. I'll never forget a sentence he told me,
"just fucking do whatever you want, but make sure you wont regret it in future. NEVER will."
He does his very best to support the whole family, be it financially or spiritually. He is exactly how a Man should be and I hope I'll become like my dad in future. I love my dad.
Mum is being very nice lately too, ever since the big disagreement we had and dragged since ages ago. She is a typical housewife, controlling spendings of the entire family and saving up whatever thats left at the end of the month. However, my dad, my sis and me tends to spend money like water, not giving a single shit. HAHA, okay not very good. She nags at my spendings, which sometimes when i think back, it is really too too too much and pointless. She nags at me for living the day like the night, and vice versa. I hope she understands that i young and i love to play. I've explained things to her and its really nice of mum to give me a smile and says she understands. My mum showed me the beauty of being frugal and taught me how importantly it is to save up for the future. But I'm sad to say that up till this current point in my life, I've NEVER saved any money but I promise I will try to start now. Whenever I go out at night, mum doesnt sleep till i reached home safely. Though she just stays in her room, silently waiting for me to come back safely before she turns in, I know. I've made her worried in the past, when i was still a ignorant teenager who is not really that good a person still. Being kinda more mature now, I made a promise with myself, never to let her down again.
I love my mum.
Sis started working not long ago, since she had already finished her studying at NTU. Though at times I dont see her for a couple of days, (coz she wakes up earlier to go to work, and sleeps earlier while I was still out) she never fails to take all my nonsense, like how I took hers. She never fails to nag about her potato chips because I never fail to steal it from her room and finishing it all myself HAHAHA. I love her too.
When the day comes where by I'm considered a good person/friend/classmate/buddy etcetc, I wanna thank my lovely family. I owe it to my family. They are the ones who stood by me through all of my dark ages, and never fails to forgive me whenever I did something wrong. They taught me how to differentiate between black and white, right and wrong.
Life is back to normal now, back to square one. Everythings cool. Never shall it be like before, just like how lame it is when your mom asks you to keep your dead cat as a souvenir -_-. Totally pointless. Well, people come and go i guess, oh well. Shiwei shall try to be satisfied with whatever that comes his way, and not blaming God for everythings that not meant to be.
I've always been a person who tries to do whatever I want and feel like while on the other hand, not having any regrets in the future. Sadly, I do have a few regrets about my life. Too bad, I was just too impatient/simple minded/couldn't care less. Anyway its over and I'm shocked I typed so much in 5 mins, my fingers didnt stop moving since the first word. Good bye.
Oh yeah, Shiwei is glad you're happy now because he believes we were both just bored of life and seeks something fresh.
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