15-5-2008

Right, so Shiwei is still alive after all the school stress and boring life he has. He is doing fine and getting high on extra Red Bulls lately, with some small dosage of chocs here and there. Time came to a standstill recently, while he find himself stucked in something which he never thought will ever happen to him. He is lazy and dont wish to explain so just shut and dont ask anything.

Its weird because Shiwei has always been clear of what he wants, but he is struggling in the sub-conscious state where by he is desperately trying to figure out what he really wants. So far so good? nah, he doesnt know what he wants still.

Liberty stand still. Tons of things on his mind, as usual. He feels like getting rid of everything spinning around in his head but he knows he cant. Shiwei isnt sure. He feels like hes being trapped in this bird cage, with the gate wide open, but he isnt really sure whether to get out or not. Retrospect? fuck.

Shiwei is having a major headache now, while he is typing through this entry. He just ate 4 panadols and had 2 canns of Red Bulls not long ago, and he is feeling extremely giddy. But he cant sleep.