times back then.

times back then.

You know sometimes if you continue doing something for some time, you'll eventually get bored.
In my case for example, i've been playing pool for like, close to 4 years? and i'm seriously DEAD BORED of that. I can still recall when i first started playing pool, and i can say its damn stupid.

It all started on a sunny afternoon when my friends and i were at a friend's house, with a pool table (coz his family owns a fucking big fish farm and hence the space). So eventually out of curiosity, we tried and surprisingly, all my friends just love it ! but not me. i dread it. major. But i continued playing with them coz i really dont wish to become the outcast.

After that day, playing pool became part of their lives, and hence mine too. And i suck at it so much i wanna cry lol. And so time and time we went out just to play pool, getting chased out of those damn pool halls is a frequent thing too, coz we were all underaged then.

One by one they became more skilled than me, and i can say out of 10 games i lost 9, back then.
Its my nature to hate the feeling of failure. I remember one of my friend telling me, its in my genes that I'm THAT lousy. (mind you, that fucker is talking about my parents)

So ever since that day i trained myself like mad, as in, MAD. After school play pool, skipped school just to play pool, morning play afternoon play night play, JUST play. There was one particular period, i played like 15hrs per day. And of coz, after awhile, i became semi-godlike lol.
But i still feel its not enough, so i trained even harder and i can say, i became 3/4-godlike LOL.

BUTTTTTT my friends were all improving like some mad shitzz too ! And hence we all became 3/4-godlikes. I can tell you, its the BEST time of our lives (at least for me kooties).

We were all 16 going on 17 years old then. Where ever we play, we were always under the spotlight. It was then i thought i actually got some real passion for this stuff.

Its was at Paradigm (a pool hall located at Lvl 6 Singapore Shopping Center) that we spent most our time at. Not forgetting Aunty Lynn, who took such good care of me (a 16yrs old innocent boy lol).

Some may say we wasted all our youths, but to me its surely not. It was that place where we've enjoyed, fought among ourselves, craps like there is no tomorrow, and most importantly, it was there where our bond grew.

Sadly, it closed down. We were all sad (at least i was damn damn damn sad). But its just a fact we gotta accept. And coincidently, it was that period when we left secondary school, and got into different institutes. My life changed.

All of us got our own path to move on, our own things to occupy ourselves, a new perspective of our own lives. We seldom meet up anymore, and even if we do meet up, i feel that there is this lack of topic to even talk about. Everything changed. I lost my passion, seriously.

Everytime i play now, its mainly to entertain people. And without the passion, i cant even execute 50% of my skills. I'm really very sad about that, coz i think i suck now. But its okay =)

Well its just another chapter of our lives, a new door that leads to an even better future(well i seriously hope so!), and the first step to learn to grow up.

Good luck everyone, in whatever you wanna pursue, seriously.